biology - certainly not, eugenics - or of the psyche - not an innate quality so much as a skill, craft to be practiced & honed, an application of technique upon a material: the self. This concept of mindfulness, perhaps I could invent a better word to encapsulate the meaning of heightened sentience upon all plateaus of existence. I strive for ever greater evolution, sophistication, emotional maturity & stability, physical endurance & agility, creative rigor, freedom in expression & assertion. It does not seem that all share in this desire: the seat of alienation. I must maintain contact with those that strive to touch higher platitudes & limit exposure to the "bottom feeders": already in this language a hierarchy is formed, a dichotomy between two opposing factions, which I can sense is foolish & grossly inappropriate for a harmonious conception of existence, against equilibrium. Mindfulness must be extended across the thresholds - 'sewing up the sutures' is my task, the role of the visionary, the responsibility of the capable, & I choose to consider myself capable.

Each are on their own path, singularly walking, setting their own course or following lines laid on the ground. Tricks & traps everywhere, the threat of others more capable but lacking a sense of ethics. Meditate upon these essential ideas: choice, guilt, repression, psychic terror, time/age/death.