Everyone is complaining all the time, if they have to work. This mode of talking fosters a certain mind - we grow into our habits as much as habits grow from our actions - so does it begin with a determination, a will or drive, or from passivity? It seams like those that are the most determined are doing the most complaining.

Writing is a form of work, but what form is yet to be determined, or rather is always ready to be redetermined, depending on determination, focus, calm or ecstatic articulation. How I work will determine what will be produced - the work makes the work. (These series of short, parable-esque notes-to-self are particularly conducive to pre-war morning thoughts).

Work is war, velocity, immersion in a machine language of violent revolution. Bratton repeatedly referenced Virilio in his seminars and text, orienting his speech/text towards a war-like trajectory. The set shop feels like war: violent, competitive, desperately rushed, while also boringly monotonous, painfully simple, full of dead bodies and dead space without any hope of being filled. If my own work (text/image/speech) will be of war or peace, of one or towards another, is yet to be determined. I must keep in touch with Bratton because he's working so close to the front and perhaps he might save me from having to fight so hard myself, while also running the risk of becoming fully enlisted.

Capitalist labor is physical, incompatible to this immaterial creative force of writing and creating. I must fortify myself to this imposed routine... make the schedule! Physical days of labor should be accompanied by physical creative pursuits. Labor days should be accompanied by physical music making sessions in the evening. Make some specific goals for this time: not cerebral music sessions, but purely physical exertions. Work it out on the drum kit, on the fretboard, or any other outlets which may arise that are physical, aerobics, embodied, and directly sensorial. Collect more outlets for this category to have on call for future days.

Dreams, day dreams, the filling of voidinal space with the workings of the sub/un/conscious... How is this space prioritized, privileged, or suppressed in relation to the activities of the caffinated cogito? The variances of embodied and disembodied dream states, in relation to other people or only resonating with ideas, the pure affective shiver of sensation, the trembling of existence before the unknown and unknowable abyss beyond our individual being. Is this work? Can it be put to work? Should it be?

OOFKAUU as a form of work, material or immaterual labor, of great importance or ultimate absurdity. The time and space that the ruminations of the OOFKAUU requires is not the antithesis of the capitalist labor system, but it being put in competition with it. Is it possible to salvage the voidinal spaces of material labor to reorient back upon the OOFKAUU? I'm merely human (all too human) and hence require down time, but to what limits can I allow myself these expanses of nothingness?

One thing is certain: I need to work with my whole/holistic being. Write with it all, sleep in it all, work with profound focus and attention to detail without straying into the primordial subconscious fray. Stay alert! Except for those moments when drowsiness are an asset.

Note on the material resources of the OOFKAUU: although it may seem more "professional" or "legitimate" to work with virgin materials - the idea that art must be cleanly severed from the world around it - due to economic/psychic/circumstantial resources this may not be possible. The creation of these materials is in fact the work of the opera: not just to have them as a finalized product but to experience-through the process of conceiving of them, sourcing them, building them, and putting them in relation to the event-world as a whole.

A TENTATIVE WORK SCHEDULE FOR LIFE AND LIVING

MONDAY: MORNING - READING

DAY - LABOR

EVENING - EMBODIED PRACTICES

TUESDAY: MORNING - WRITING (FINISHED BY 11)

DAY - OOFKAUU ATTENTION

EVENING - EMBODIED PRACTICES

WEDNESDAY: MORNING - READING

DAY - HANG WITH ___ / DAY TRIP / ERRANDS / MATERIAL GATHERING

EVENING - READING / EMBODIED PRACTICES

THURSDAY: MORNING - WRITING

DAY - OOFKAUU ATTENTION

EVENING - EMBODIED PRACTICES

FRIDAY: MORNING - READING

DAY - LABOR

EVENING - EMBODIED PRACTICES

SATURDAY: MORNING - READING/WRITING

DAY - OOFKAUU ACTIVITES

EVENING - OPEN / RUMINATION / DECOMPRESSION

SUNDAY: MORNING - HANG WITH ___ / DAY TRIP

DAY - RUMINATION SESSION / RECORDING

EVENING - OPEN / RUMINATION / DECOMPRESSION

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