their business, tending to their business, not tending to themselves or each other.

Idle chit chat of the mindless workers. There's nothing to think about and the silence is unbeatable, so verbal miasma ensues.

Traffic circles. Routines. "The grind" abrasions against the fundament of existence. The opposite of purposive tool being. Comments on traffic, how to do it better, play by play commentary.

Constant building, rendering, overly aestheticized structurally weak storefronts. Business is expanding, making more jobs, more excess, more traffic, more business, more waste.

"These long days make me shoppy."

I need a new job. Maybe I can write a piece of theater about that...?

"Go to an Asian country, if for nothing else just to witness how 2/3 of the worlds population is getting on."

More than anything else - beyond all the material toxicity and bastardized creative processes - I observe myself being caught in the strange cycle of social obligation. To speak. I must speak, but why? For sale of others or my own comfort? It's part of the job: maintain a conducive working environment, friendly relations, to lubricate the grinding of the destructive machine. One can't maintain such awareness - the awareness I strive for through these writings - and maintain comfort in the labors. They are not compatible. My threats to the system put my own wellbeing at risk, as I am bound up with it. Do not self sabotage! Stay covert, stay safe, stay focused. My time will come later.

Spontaneous idea:

How to continue to reap inspiration from this job? I'm here to build sets while gathering inspiration for myself. Yes, learn to build and perhaps even play with renderings - only for myself, not for business. In the end: use the finished catalogs as the stage backdrop for scenes of the opera. Scan them, photoshop out the text - even if it's fast and obvious, shoot video in front of a green screen, impose the manipulated images into the background.

Research to buy:

Curtains for 3 sides

Tripod pole support for photo paper backdrop

Lighting system - iPhone or Dex's camera

Scanner

High res screen capture software

High res pocket camera - incognito shots while at work

*remember something ___ said about stealing back time from the employer - never stop making art

Remember Dad and the Four Agreements: not so interesting when contemplated singularly, it takes on a new significance in the work place. Very useful these days.